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The New Me: Look At Me Now

May 16, 2011

After nearly four weeks of no contact, EBM decides tonight is the night to make  the call. There had been a few conversations since he’d met her a couple of months ago but an actual date never transpired. The duo had an undeniable chemistry at the first meeting but life (The Situation) just kind of got in the way.

The phone rings a few times before EBM hangs up, defeated. He leaves no voicemail. But to his surprise, my name appears in his caller ID seconds later. I was deciding whether or not I should answer EBM’s call considering so much time had passed, but I decided a few weeks ago to not over think anything these next few months, so I called him back.

We fall right back into our sarcastic exchange regarding out respective M.I.A.ness before we began with formalities. First I found out about his latest developments and then it was my turn.

EBM: So, what’s new with you?

Me: I’m moving to New York and I’m gonna be an aunt in a few months. I’m so excited to be an aunt!

*I really played my previous statement down. I’m not one into a big production with strangers. It was already an awkward conversation to begin with. Plus I really am excited to be an Aunt!*

EBM: [long pause] Wait what?! You’re moving to NY?

Me: Yeah. I’m going to NYU in the fall for my masters so I want to get settled in by August.

*After he gets over the initial shock, he goes in on me.*

EBM: So how do the guys you’re dating feel about your move?

Me: [now I’m caught off guard] Well I’m only dating one and I’m not really concerned with how he feels. We’re not that serious and I didn’t make this decision with him in mind.

We spend the next 10 minutes dissecting my relationship with The Situation [which is another blog for another time.] I lay it all out there. Nothing but honestly followed. The truth is, me and The Situation have come to an unspoken agreement, although people around us expect us to take the next step and become a couple, we don’t see each other like that. We’re comfortable spending lot’s of time together but know we could never commit to each other. And now that I’ll be moving cross country in a few months, we’re just hanging out.

Knowing this, EBM and I still feel like we should get to know each other before I leave BUT we agreed that once I left, that would be it. Neither of us are interested in long distance anything.

The old me would have talked myself out of spending time with both The Situation and EBM. But the old me also wouldn’t quit my job (in 2 months), sell my car and move to NY to pursue my dream. We can all agree that the old me stood in the way for too long. The new me is enjoying life and not taking anything not related to my career too seriously. I promise to blog more these next several weeks before I leave. Should be exciting to document my last few weeks in the sunny LA.

How have you guys been lately? Any exciting developments you would like to share? Meet me in the comment section.

7 Comments leave one →
  1. May 16, 2011 7:24 am

    I feel bad, I havent really been following or reading recently… Way too many projects going on, and now family drama. BUT, i think its awesome that you are moving to new york to fullfill your dream. AND I think its very important and courageous to not let person reasons, mainly semi-relationships to hold you back. The new you is a good look. Maybe i should take lessons.

    • May 16, 2011 9:37 am

      Don’t feel bad. Life gets in the way. Trust me, I know. I haven’t regularly blogged since February so you haven’t missed much. But I will for the next few weeks. When school starts tho, I may have to retire from this blog officially, who knows.

  2. Mr. Fantastic permalink
    May 16, 2011 8:31 am

    First of all SiSi, I’m really glad to see people making a change to stop letting what they’re “Used to doing” get in the way of what they COULD be doing. I don’t know when the last blog from you has been, but I got married in April (you know, but the others might not). My boy is walking now, which is just crazy. And the Lakers have been put out the playoffs, which has put me into sports-watching off season the earliest in the year that I have been in a very long while. I really don’t know what to do with myself. I really want the girls to blog more again. You guys give my morning a great start. 😉

    • May 16, 2011 9:38 am

      Thanks Mr. Fantastic. I’m hoping that if I start blogging, the rest of the Cereal Daters will follow suit. We want you to guest blog more by the way…*wink wink*

  3. May 16, 2011 9:53 am

    good post. its funny how people just decide they want to pick up and hit you up after a long hiatus. new york huh? nyu in august? interesting. that’s on my short list (of 2 places) that i’ll be in august for my fellowship.

    • May 16, 2011 10:45 am

      yeah NY in August, NYU in September. I just want a month to get adjusted. I’ll probably see you around. I think we have our unmissable height in common. You won’t know me but I’ll know you (thanks to your avatar).

  4. May 16, 2011 12:37 pm

    well i don’t think that’s hardly fair. lol i’ll take it though

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